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All's Fair

by E. Awai

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1.
Love and War 03:48
We keep our problems on the shelf Too scared to say what’s true I fear that I’ll be catching hell For keeping secrets to my self A selfish thing to do My thoughts fall heavy on my head I don’t know what to say Raise my hands you caught me red I’m lying where I made my bed Too bruised to walk away
 And I am asking you to try To believe me when I lie 
Tell me what we’re fighting for Give an inch I’ll take a score They say all’s fair in love and war Tell me what we’re fighting for
 Emotion is a bitter pill That’s roiling in my gut I tell you it might hurt and still You let me move in for the kill I almost take the shot
 You say that we can talk it out I really hope that’s true Every word is sick with doubt We’re wounded and we’re bleeding out I want to save us too
 But if I drop when you say when Will you break my fall again Won’t you tell me what we’re fighting for Give an inch I’ll take a score They say all’s fair in love and war Tell me what we’re fighting for
 We scream ourselves out of our minds It doesn’t make a sound Good intentions undermined We overwrite and press rewind And circle back around I know it’s not my place to say Would you stay here anyway - hey Honey would you stay with me, stay 
Tell me what we’re fighting for Give an inch I’ll take a score I want back what we had before And nothing scares me anymore They say all’s fair in Love and war
2.
I’ve got a big ambition You know how to get things done We’re gonna have lots of fun Don’t stop don’t think just come I know it's a hard decision Don’t know if I’m worth your while Not sure if you like my style just call me for a free trial I’ve got one bad habit Don’t know how to fight it Take or leave me I’ve got one bad habit I’m not gonna hide it Take or leave me leave me I swear the job is easy As long as we don’t get caught Be ready to play your part I’ll get the party started Don’t follow too far behind me I think it’ll all work out But be ready to be bail me out In case it goes south I’ve got one bad habit Don’t know how to fight it (don’t know how to fight) One bad habit I’m not gonna hide it (I’m not gonna hide Take or leave me, leave me, leave me And we won’t go down Just take my hand — I’ll lead you out No, we won’t go down Just take my hand — I’ll lead you Just take my hand — I’ll lead you out I’ve got one bad habit Don’t know how to fight it Take or (take or) leave me
3.
The Story 03:45
I can find a path out of this shadow I don’t need a riding hood If I get the story right If I get the story right I can make the ending turn out better Wrap my arms around you like a lover Follow every moral by the letter that will keep me safe and sound And I believe that I could heal your broken heart (your broken heart) I will be the prize inside your tower Better than Rapunzel could And if I get the story right If I get the story right I won’t ever leave for any reason Keep me like a secret if it’s pleasing I will be here season after season Anything you ask my love And I believe that I could heal your broken heart (your broken heart) I don’t need to kiss a handsome prince I know you are the perfect frog And if I get the story right If I get the story right I can make believe that you still love me I can take a hit, my fault, forgive me We can make it work; we’ll be so happy One day when the story’s done The story is never done You said that last time was the last time And forgiveness is a rose inside a vase waiting to die And Lord I don’t know how long I can live inside a lie I dreamed that I could heal your broken heart They say that beauty saved the beast But I think she died trying Yes, I think she died Died trying I know what a prison doorway looks like Better than Scheherazade But if I get the story right If I get the story right Maybe you are better than the worst thing You have ever done - I guess that’s something Take me if you want; I’ll keep on giving All I need is hope my love
4.
Typhoid Mary 03:54
Let me tell you what I am become Typhoid Mary they call me, Typhoid Mary We both know I’m not the chosen one But if you want me this time I’ll let you have me Got a pocket full of posies and I’m waiting with open arms For you all, all, all to fall, fall, fall Fall And I don’t know what my left hand does when the right’s tied down Watch your back dear You might lose your head here I wear violence like an evening gown You an hide behind your shadow but you can’t outrun my arrow I arrive without a sound But when my footprint breaks the ground They come around, they come around Got my watchman standing by He holds the line, I hold the lie And all good pilgrims pay the levy Bear me up ‘cause I’m so heavy, I’m so heavy Let me tell you what I am become Typhoid Mary they call me, Typhoid Mary Hanging on you like a bad luck charm But you’re so crazy you think that you can save me Got a pocket full of posies and I’m waiting (waiting, waiting) Typhoid Mary they call me, Typhoid Mary Got a pocket full of posies and I’m waiting (waiting, waiting) For you all, all, all to fall (to fall) For you all, all, all to fall, fall, fall
5.
I know I took your name in vain Fist in my gut and twisting, and twisting I lost the word and I’m begging I’m begging you to say it Just say it I wish the truth had been a lie We said we’d fight for love I fought and it died God I wish I hadn’t noticed the pattern The flash before the thunder That tore us both asunder They say They say that even rivers dry up I thought believing brought peace That getting answers made under standing easy And I would find us a moral at the end But we were just a statistic Too broken up to fix it You say I just need some faith Is your evidence forensic or just hearsay? You made a promise I’m waiting for conviction I’m sick with indecision Losing my religion They say They say that even rivers dry up I’ve crossed my hands at my back Keeping your secrets hoarded like a packrat And I’m afraid I’ll face judgement for pretending This act of contrition We lie by omission So lay my truth here to rest I wrote enough to show how much I’ve invested I swear that cruelty was never my intent If I sound a little hostile Don’t take my word as gospel They say They say that even rivers dry up And the flutter of a wing can change the weather And a thousand years of stone on stone And a kingdom falls on a horseshoe nail And I laughed (and I laughed) In the face of God and You Said nothing back I know I took you name in vain Fist in my gut and twisting, and twisting I lost the word and I’m begging I’m begging you to save it
6.
Fine Print 02:54
They don’t tell you the truth, no You have to choose the lesser of two evils I’ll translate it for you, though It’s easy to see that it’s a no win situation They say stick to your station Please learn not to listen Leave off or come on You can keep on asking why or when or how Write it off, calm down, I’ll take the blame for now Sign a dotted line, don’t read the fine print I’d cross a line to get out of this box we’re both in I won’t try to advise you To do as I say but not as I do You know I like to crack wise too I thought we’d hold our breath from here to the Do the work and then vanish No good deed goes unpunished I’m just wondering how long You can keep on asking why or when or how Write it off, calm down, I’ll take the blame for now Sign a dotted line, don’t read the fine print I’d cross a line to get out of this box we’re both in But is my word good enough? x 2 They don’t tell you the truth, no You have to choose You have to choose the lesser of two evils
7.
I am cocking the gun I’m not the only one here With a hard-on for violence But it’s all in good fun If I seem quiet and shy I’m still a killer on the inside I’m still a killer on the inside You say too much is never enough You get around so much You’d break a world record bringing me off Let haters say we’re way too demanding When the world’s on its knees we’ll be standing, yeah They are starting a war I hear that it’s gonna rain And you know how it goes First it rains, then it pours So get your foot in the door I hear it's warmer on the inside It's always warmer on the inside I swear my word was never in doubt I get around so much I’ve got a red letter calling me out Let haters say we’re way too demanding When the world’s on its knees we’ll be standing, yeah Put the light on And leave your shame in the bathroom With your birthday suit Cause the fight’s on And you know it’s true I don’t pull my punches for anyone but you Are you ready to go? They say life on the lam Is as nice as the weather And it’s starting to blow But I’m as calm as an eye I’m only screaming on the inside x3
8.
Monsters 03:32
My mother and I stand side by side I’m scared and she swears that the monsters won’t get me But shadows still feed all my fears as they linger And today is the very first day of school And on top of the blackboard the golden rule And people start out with such fragile skin You’d never know what it’s holding in. Don’t tell me I can’t stand the truth and I’m crumbling My sister and I stand side by side A fight for affection that everyone’s losing The home is unkind and the world is no kinder I tell her that she just remembers wrong But the truth is it was my fault all along And hope is the burden that we carry The tale that I'm telling is cautionary Don’t touch me I can’t heal the wound while the knife is in My daughter and I stand side by side Both caring as much as we can without listening The blind lead the blind and the chasm grows wider I cannot breathe life into anything Baby bird learns to fall down instead of sing And I thought I’d be The exception I paved all the roadways with good intentions Don’t trust me I can’t fight the monsters I'm one of them

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E. Awai's debut album is an emotional journey through life's watershed moments, featuring soulful vocals harmonies, intricate piano melodies and soaring, cinematic string instrumentals.

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released April 15, 2018

Music and lyrics by Erica Fortuné Awai, E. Awai Music Production ©℗2018. String recording sessions engineered by Lincoln Andrews at SAE Expression College in Emeryville, CA. Mastered by Piper Payne at Neato Mastering in Oakland, CA. Album art by Travis Weaver.

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